TEXT to a friend, 9 Dec 2014:
Its all very unreal. I’m spending my days in the hospice with Mum but their flat’s so lonely at night. This time is precious and I will treasure it forever. Had to see undertaker today – so hard doing it alone – not easy because we are waiting for Mum to die. She is desperate to join Dad. We are all just waiting. I really appreciate your text. The whole experience is making me re-evaluate life, and think too much, and I feel shaken to the core so support such as texts etc is very much appreciated.. Xx
9 Dec 2014,10.02:
Mum: Good morning had a good sleep hope you have luv u xxxx
Me: Good to hear that! I will be with you soon. Love xxxx
9 Dec 2014, 20.03:
Mum: Good night god bless you luv you lots xxxx
Me: Goodnight and God Bless… I love you lots, too! xxxx
“No one ever told me that grief felt so like fear. I am not afraid, but the sensation is like being afraid. The same fluttering in the stomach, the same restlessness, the yawning. I keep on swallowing.”
C.S.Lewis